Life Lessons #1-Maria

Hey readers.

You'd probably say I don't have as much "life experience" as an adult would. And that's true, I don't. But I do have a decent amount. Enough to know that this world, right now, is pretty screwed up.

Trusting people, for me, is pretty difficult. The past few years, my peers have become pretty brutal. I didn't know how people my age, barely thirteen, could be so cruel. In the past school year, I have received two death threats, watched as four of my friends began to hate me for no apparent reason, and heard about one very horrid rumor being spread about me. I'll explain the latter; the rest are pretty pointless now.

So one day at lunch, I was talking to two of my friends about a band that I liked. The band was Tokio Hotel. One said, "oh they look like girls." I responded with a quick, "a little, but I like them anyway." The boys at the table behind us apparently misheard our words. In a matter of two days, the entire grade thought I was bisexual. No one was talking to me, aside form my closest friends.

I knew that I wasn't bisexual. I have absolutely nothing against anyone who is, but I didn't like to be called something I'm not. This was an extremely difficult time for me. No one knew the truth, and when I tried to explain, no one believed my story. Isn't it so curious how people hear a rumor, and don't believe the truth when it comes from the source?

It never really was resolved. Guidance councilors (at my school, at least) don['t really help the situation. I describe them as touchy-feeley. I'd rather be anonymous than have them say, "Oh, Maria doesn't like that you spread a rumor about her." They way they go about handling the situation kind of bothers me. It usually just makes things worse.

Really, I just don't understand anymore. I don't know who I can trust, because, obviously, many of my friends can't be. I think one friend is just so insanely honest and good-natured that she'll always be there. One. That's just about it for me. I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I won't focus on anything socially from here on out. Maybe I'll just...leave everyone alone and stay to myself. What do you think, readers?

And if any of the lovely people who spread that lovely rumor (you know who you are) are reading this, You have been spreading lies. I feel bad for you, as you were sucked into this mess.

Have an awesome day, on me.

XoXo,
Maria

P.s. Even though they were inadvertently the start of my problems, I still love Tokio Hotel. Search them on YouTube, okay? They're amazing.