If there's one thing that I hate and love at the same time, it's boys. You love them, well because of stupid hormones, or whatever it is that makes me like them. Yet, at the same time you want to rip their head of because of the most recent thing they did, and lately my life has been topsy-turvy ever since I met Bill.
Around my area we have high school games called the legion and me and my friends usually go unless we have a softball game that day. The first one I went to this summer was awesome, and I had fun with my friends. The next day Annie and I were outside on her porch steps coloring on the sidewalk. One of Bill's friends, Jay are Annie's neighbor and he came up to us before crossing through her yard to get to the park, he was talking about how Bill thought I was hot and liked me. I had no idea who the kid is, so I just go along saying I wasn't interested. When he left Annie told me how hot he was, and she showed me his pick on myspace. Ironically, not to long ago that afternoon I was asking who "Bill Bill" was on her myspace. And ever since then he's popping up everywhere.
At the legion games, at Rithcie's game, and just plain old everywhere. My mind especially. He was always there. Everytime I passed his friends at the parks they yelled out "Hey Ayana! Bill likes you!" and I would say "okay" or "whatever" or "sure" not knowing if they were telling the truth or not. Because 1. Bill had a girlfriend and 2 after that he would claim he didn't. Then, just the other night Joe, Annie's cousin said on facebook that he liked me. I wasn'y sure whether to trust him or not, I'd have to ask Annie. So i txted her while she was sleeping. She didn't respond 'til the next morning. And she went on my facebook (we practically share it) and found out some things from Joe. Bill doesn't actually like me, he said he was just kidding right after he told me. And that's why I claim boys are stupid. (No offense to boys or anything reading this, they probably think girls are stupid also.)
It's just all so confusing and frustrating and it makes me clueless. I hate that. I know, someday I will find the right person, and I will be happy, I'm just wishing that day would come faster. =/ But I don't because even through all this I'm happy because I have my best friends to back me up. Especially when I saw Annie said to Joe, her cousin, "if your lying to ayana i will chew your head up" and I know very well that she can. She also called me her besy friend, which I liked because sometimes with living in two different places I can't be so sure all the time.
And I know, I am probably boring you with my problems and Maria will yell at me for incorrect grammer, talking about me too much, both, or something else on here. But that's OK by me. =D LOL love her. <3 <3
I promise next time I will right about something that will make you think, like my views on life or whatever... dreams, goals, music, whatever, I kind of love those subjects. Oohh and add writing to that list, I want to be an a-- no no no thats for the next post!
L for love-- Ayana
P.S. Did you know your supposed to paint your dominant hand first when painting your nails?? I always forget but I try to remember. ;D So until next time...
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